Back to 1998.

It feels good doing this.

Like it was still 1998,1999, 2000, 2001,2005 again. It took me years to forget all that beating, screaming, throwing things out of my head and now its back. Its always me and only me will always witness it . Every single time when you quarreling theres no one at home its just both of you and me. Back then i was scared very scared and will always hide inside the blanket crying and pretending not to hear but i did, i have no choice. Then i grew up and when that happens nyai is there by my side saying "everything is gonna be alright". I didn't know what to do. And now its still the same but expt i plug in my earpiece listening to song, sitting beside the door leaning on the cupboard and lean my head on the door. I am scared then and i am scared now. Whether i'm hearing music or not i still can hear the throwing and screaming of yesterday and i will end up crying. I wish i didn't hear all that. Just............................. make me fucking scared.